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Jan. 23rd, 2008 | 05:25 pm

Hey yall.. nothing is going on.

School is back and absolutely totally in full effect!

I wont say its getting the best of me.....

but its definitely on edge.


Besides that... Laila and i are talking again. Its so weird. She and i stopped talking because basically she has a smart mouth. So far She is doing really well at biting her tongue.lol

Guy thing? Guys r guys. That whole team thing is out the window( shaunie!). I actually have no idea what i was thinking. Yes i do... it would be interesting but in the long wrong that is not a good look....Drama! and besides....oh nevermind. ha!


My nephew is sooo cute. I gotta put pics up one day. THe only thing is ..he is sooo small! And actually he is getting spoiled. He wants to be held and craddled. Kids are nuts!

Well...i gotta go to the post office! Holla! ha!

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I have been GONE GONE GONE

Jan. 12th, 2008 | 05:43 pm
music: what is it about men- amy winehouse

Hey u all! Say hello to auntie princess!  My sister and my friend had their babies on the same date. so went home like 10 times...3 hour drive! Precious boys!

I have been thinking that i want a small team...of boys. But that does not work for me! u all ways like someone..so u dont really feel like hanging out with the others.. and im not having sex with any of them,,, so that didnt go well.lol.. however... i did meet this one guy.

Im certainly NOT about meeting guys at clubs! but does it count that we met walking to my car?lol...  ha! but yeah... it was so nice.. im all about a guy in a nice sweater especially when he appears to be a gentleman. usually im very reluctant to give anyone my number but after a few drinks i was like what the hey! We will call him Texes

A day or two later called..or texted..whatever... and let me tell u that within 15 mins he was absolutely not my usual cup of tea. but hey.. i was working on my team at that point and wasnt looking for anything serious. days later this i learn that this guys life is absolutely not one that i would generally be involved in. But hey Im working on my team...

Something about him "draws" me into him. And he draws me into him. And then HE PUSHES ME AWAY. its sooo weird. The way he seems when things happen is that he is thinking " im too much for him". Today he goes he doesnt want to get attached to me because he isnt where he wants to be and im going so far ( figuratively and literally( im moving away when i graduate)). 

He could however be pushing me away because of other people. we havent been talking long and so i dont know whats going on in his life with girls except for what he tells me.. and we all know that things arent always brought to light immidiately.

Or he could be a minimalist. and by that i mean... MAYBE HE doesnt want the best things in life( ME)LOL. No.. im kidding. there are other options im sure but hey..

Im almost 22 for the second time so im not pressed to be in any situation,relationship,or anything that will hold me back. 

Moving on! 
This situation with mr texas has made mr hampton see the light..but its never bright enough apparently.

But anyway.. i missed livejournal a little bit... and i missed yall entries a lot o' bit!

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(no subject)

Nov. 9th, 2007 | 01:50 pm

 no more complaining about the roommate situation.. there are people with far worse roommates!

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Annoyed! BUT GOD IS GREAT!

Nov. 5th, 2007 | 10:42 pm
mood: annoyed annoyed

ive been trying.really i have! I dont want to say anything else because my CONTRACT IS UP ON DEC 20TH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just a litte over a month!

 but how can i take this!?  How can someone just be so rude, so inconsiderate, so idiotic, so selfish!!!

She hasnt paid off her complete balance for the cox bill... (THOUGH i havENTturned it off yet; IVE BEEN MEANING TO SO THAT THERE WONTBE ANY SITUATIONS WHEN ITS TIME TO BE OUT)! my fault( busy busy busy.. by the way someone told me today that busy ment been under satans yolk.. whatever). 

And her boyfriend is here unneccessarily for the 2nd time this week. lmao. its only tuesday i know, but why is he here. i dont get it . I hope he isnt here tomorrow. technically he isnt supposed to be here 3 consecutive days legally but what do they care!

My jahova(sp) friend and i have been debating out God testing people, and u know.. this is a really tough test. Part of me just wants to curse and scream and be unchristian like. I just feel disrespected.like she is doing this crap on purpose.  but anyway. she doesnt believe that God test people or punishes people.... she also doesnt believe in hell or that all good people will go to heaven. VERY INTERESTING THOUGHT PROVOKING NOTIONS!

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Nov. 3rd, 2007 | 09:13 pm

 Im suppose to be finishing my comparative work but...i want to talk to you all. 

I hosted my sisters baby shower this weekend! After 2 + weeks of being being stressed out it came to a head at about 1:15 when my mom went bezurk and started screaming at me! she was more stressed than me. I have pictures. Ill try to put them on here but if not YOU ALREADY KNOW IT WILL BE ON FACEBOOK. 

I have observed that my favorite personality trait is that im very capable of not being stubborn. I am able to forgive and kinda move on. Im not sure if  i posted this last year. but around this time last year i lost my friend. She came down for a weekend and things just went crazy from there. But it was honestly because she didnt have christ in here life. and now she does. and after everything that happened last year, i have moved on. And there are alot of other things that i could be sooo bitter about. ( especially my roommate- but i wont go there)!

Nothing much has been going on. Just school! work! a little stressed but thinking blessed!

By there way im annoyed with one of my friends! She was supposed support me this weekend and gave me smart comments about why she couldnt! but im over it. kinda! people just suck sometimes!

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lazy lazy me!

Oct. 25th, 2007 | 03:24 pm

yeah . i have something i could post about but somethings got me down. could be all this rain...even though we really need it. we were about to have a drought apparently. but um. yeah. 

im counting down to my move out date.
im trying to find some money
trying to not get bad credit

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script

Oct. 6th, 2007 | 09:34 pm

 Play: Real life; Roommates!   


me:I dont care if we dont talk for the next 3 months.. PAY THE BILLS AND KEEP IT CLEAN. 

closes door

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the lady in the water is a really stupud movie

Sep. 29th, 2007 | 08:34 pm

 WOW. I have been gone a long time. sorry!

Nothing eventful has happened though

School, organizations, work, bills, home.

Hey.... so isnt it hilarious when someone stops talking to you cuz they are wrong! Absolutely Hilarious!

Im watching tv... and the lady in the water is on HBO. Worse movie in the whole entire realm of horror movies. Ok i just  checked the info.. Its supposed to be fantasy. WTHeck! Technically it could be a really bad comedy!


In other news, im excited about seeing my nephew... he will be out of my sister wombs in january! Now if only we can give her and the baby daddy a life make over!

lol...

Prayer!

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Sep. 17th, 2007 | 09:22 pm

 People suck.. and by people... i mean my roommate

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pimples

Sep. 16th, 2007 | 09:12 pm

You know how you can tell when you are getting a pimple. And you are kinda annoyed and worrying how it will end up. And then maybe it doesnt form at all, or at the very least, its nothing to really be too crazy about.But then, You have those ones that get huge and they hurt and they even have the white tip!!!!

Well, That tip has come to a head. In my life. So yeah.. i was hoping i didnt have to vent but i do. but before i do,

I would just like to say that when the Lord tells you something nothing you do is going to change that.  So many months ago God definitely told me to just let it go. And i was like ok. But immediately i latched back on. Hoping for a change. Thinking that maybe,he could be wrong about this one... or maybe not wrong but maybe i wasnt hearing him right. Maybe "he wasnt talking fast, maybe i was listening slow"- some song!

But yeah ,i felt like God was talking to me all day. I wasnt getting completely what he was saying but when i got home It was clear to me. I had been holding on to broken promises. And Things that i had justified for myself, but were not justifyable. I have been insisting that one day things are going to be how i want them to be;how they are they are supposed to be. 
But i just realized that Gods way is the only way. And if i keep holding on to things that i want for myself ill be settling for mediocracy... at best. And honestly...im sure not even that.

And so im breaking out of my packrat, never let go demeanor and letting go of chris!  Sigh! His season is over. And i know im going to have to offically break it off. Our " friendship" has to be deliquished. i cant move on under those terms.  ive told myself ten thousand times that i have. So i have to be official..

But in other news.... After being away for a weekend i arrived home to the smell of smelting trashy air! the house smelled like a rotten egg cheese mix! I was pissed to say the least. at the risk of sounding adolescent... it wasnt my turn to clean up. BUT I DID!!!!!!  the whole apartment. and im mad about it. The bathroom smelled like pee!!! im sure her boyfriend missed the toilet and didnt have the decency(...hmmm) to clean it up! and they spit on the faucet.

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hhhhhhhhhhhh... i might feel a little better

 

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